Musings of a Retail Worker

I feel like sometimes I speak on this blog like I eat perfectly 100 percent of the time, which is definitely not true. Nobody can do that, except Kate Middleton. Case in point, today I was so nervous before my chem test that I couldn’t really eat. So I came back to Juan and Margo’s and downed:

4 bowls of Raisin Bran Crunch

Handful after handful of chocolate chips mixed with peanuts. (That’s like crack, fuh real).

So yeah, I’m not saying this because I feel all bad, I just realized that I probably should inform you I’m an actual human being. I’m not trying to be stick thin or be a fitness model and sometimes I just want to eat what I want to eat! And sometimes that happens to be copious amounts of random snack food late at night. MMMM. What is it about other people’s food???

tumblr_lqd1r4g21k1qii6tmo1_500This is about to turn into a super random and feely post, so bear with me. But working in a clothing store I hear girls rag on their bodies ALL DAY EVERY DAY.

I hate my butt.

I need to lose 30 pounds (none of them ever do).

My arms are so flabby.

GOD my thighs. They’re massive.

Ugh my stomach, just cover it up.

Judas. The dressing room just turns into this massive pit of negativity with everyone pointing out every single thing wrong with themselves. But you know what? I feel like I really learned something when I was laying in bed miserable for months and months.
I didn’t miss my good looking body. I wasn’t laying there wishing I could be cute again. I wanted a body that worked for me again! That could walk around a campus all day, exercise to lift my mood, go dancing with my friends, and just live a normal life! A healthy body is a beautiful thing!

So now, after listening to these girls day in and day out, I’ve realized that I really don’t care about “losing those last few pounds” or looking absolutely perfect. I’m insanely happy and my body can do what it needs to do again. I will never sacrifice my health just for cosmetic reasons, it isn’t worth it. I fuel my body with healthy food and exercise and every once and a while I fuel my soul with something purely yummy.

And even if you do need to get healthy, don’t do it because you hate your body! That is so unproductive. Get healthy because you love your body and want it to be around to work for you for a long time. Your body is your home, forever. Don’t you want to keep in nice?

So ladies, next time you’re thinking about skipping dinner or restricting yourselves to a crazy diet because of your “massive thighs”, think about all the incredible things your body can do and be grateful. Healthy and happy is perfect, or at least about as close as you can get 🙂


Great Information

My physical therapy session yesterday went better than I ever could have imagined!


I learned some GREAT tips to reduce the pain and how to live my life from now on without hurting my back again. The first thing she did was check out my posture while I was standing and while I was sitting. It turns out I have a very hyper-mobile back and because of years of dance training and my own natural tendencies, what I thought was “sitting up straight” was really arching my spine backwards.


I was sitting like the person on the right. When she adjusted my spine to neutral position, I told her, “I feel like I’m slouching!” She said it’s very common to feel like that for the first few weeks while my brain adjusts to my new normal, but that I’ll get it figured out. I may feel like I’m sitting like the woman on the left, but I’m really right in the middle!

All this postural work applies to my standing and walking as well. I have to focus on my core muscles pulling my pelvis forward instead of allowing that swayback, because that puts all the pressure from every activity I do right where the defect in my spine is.

I am so relieved to know all this information!! I ALREADY feel so much less pain and my attitude has flipped 180 degrees. When doctors told me this problem was something I’d have to manage my whole life I though they meant it would always hurt and I’d just have to deal with it. What this therapist explained is that isn’t true, I CAN do everything I did before this but I just have to always be aware of my posture and make sure my core is always strong.

PSH. That’s nothing!! Of COURSE I can do that!! I’m going to do all the exercises she gave me exactly how she tells me to, keep focusing on my posture, and do everything she tells me to get rid of this pain.

She’s also going to teach me how to do my workouts with this new posture so that I can still push myself really hard without pushing myself into an injury.

Sorry if this is a word heavy post, I just feel so happy and relieved and I’m finally 100% confident that I will get my old life back. Or rather, I’ll get a new and improved life with better posture, a stronger core, and no more back pain! I’d say that’s a pretty good deal. Hope your week is going as well as mine!