We’ve all had “fat days” or days when we just feel blah about our bodies. I especially struggle with this when I can’t workout and (as you well know) there have been a lot of times where that is the case over the past year.
The instant I hear “take some time away from exercise” I stop appreciating my body for its strength and agility and start picking apart what I look like. There are so many times in my past when I felt overweight and then I look at pictures and realize I wasn’t. At all.
I specifically remember looking at all these pictures right after they were taken and thinking, “wow I really need to lose some weight.” So I started counting calories and being super super careful about everything I ate. It was tiring and annoying, but my senior year I lost a lot of weight through diet alone and I felt good about it.
When my back injury finally healed, I felt so awesome! I could workout and be active again and I loved it. But I started going too overboard. If I felt like I ate too much at dinner or if I indulged in some cookies with girlfriends I’d come home and workout again, even if I already had that day.
So then when I pulled my ab muscle because I was being too hard on my body, I instantly felt fat again. But this time I finally caught myself. I haven’t gained 20 pounds just because I haven’t worked out in a week, that just doesn’t happen! I ate a piece of cake for dessert last night and I felt so bad about it that it just sat like a rock in my stomach. I hadn’t been blogging about my food because I felt guilty about “eating so much” and not working out. I had a long talk with my Mom about it and I realized I have to stop this stupid cycle.
I can’t keep working out and pushing my body to the point of injury and then being too restrictive with food when I am healing. I might gain a few pounds while this heals, and that’s okay! And I’m going to learn how to stop counting calories, take rest days when I can workout, and be healthy and happy. It’s going to be a little hard at first just because it’s what I’m so used to but I’m ready and I’m excited.
If you ever struggle with body image, I hope you have people in your life who you can talk to about it. Chances are you are fine! And if you really do want to or need to lose some weight, there are plenty of ways to do it without going overboard.
So this morning I had waffles with peanut butter and a banana, and they were delicious. Soon my ab will be healed and until it is I need to fuel my body through that process 😀 Here’s to my last injury for ever and ever!!! 😀
Have you ever felt like you needed to lose weight when you really didn’t? What makes you feel good about your body?